Happy new year… I think
2020 was a weird year, and that’s putting it simply.
I think we can all safely say that 2020 was a terrible, strange, once in a lifetime (I hope) kind of year. If someone had told me a year ago that Christmas could be cancelled, that you weren’t able to travel to another part of the country, that you had to wear a mask everywhere, I would have asked if they had been watching too many apocalypse movies.
It is hard to sum up what has happened this past year, I don’t think anyone really can. The Christmas announcement broke a little part of my hope and going into the new year has been hard, for everyone. Food went to waste, families were kept apart, again, and Santa had to reroute a lot of presents.. Ultimately, I understood. We all have to keep each other safe, we have show that as a nation we can be selfless and understanding. But jeez was I excited for my mum’s turkey.
I think during a time like this it is so important to find something good in each day. To look for positives in the negatives and to count the blessings we do have. As you know I have completed a lot of puzzles, sorted out parts of the house that would stare at me constantly waiting to be done, changed jobs to a much better company and used facetime and zoom more than I ever would. I mean I hadn’t even heard of zoom before March. Now I’m the first to set up a zoom quiz, at this point I don’t why I am not an applicant for the Chase but the multiple quizzes don’t seem to be helping my general knowledge get any better. I mean who actually knew that the Iphone was first released in 2007… well me now so bring on eggheads.
Anyway, I digress, what I am trying to say is a smile from a neighbour, a compliment in work, a moan with a stranger in a supermarket about 2020, they are all things that will keep us going. If anyone is wondering, my good thing for today is that Tyson the pug has been trying to sit at my desk as I work from home and it’s been putting a smile on my face.
I’m aware I am rambling on, and don’t get me wrong I still have really low days. I have a panic attack everytime I go to a supermarket, I cry at things like TOWIE, I miss my family everyday and I sometimes forget how lucky I am to have someone I love with me every step of the way. I am far from anything perfect and yet I am beginning to see the good in each day because I know that is the best way my mental health will cope through this time.
When speaking to my mum yesterday, one thing she said really stood out, you are not alone. I know it sounds obvious but hearing it out loud after the dooming announcement of yet another lock down really helped me understand. So many people are struggling right now. It’s in no way a normal situation so to have a reaction you see as out of character is completely normal! Let yourself be upset or angry or confused but also remember to smile at the small things, I hope that gets you through!
Anyway, I’ll stop pretending to be wise now and get back to writing another zoom quiz. Think I’m better suited to the quizmaster role anyway..